'til Death Do Us Part

Saturday I had the honor of being a Groomsman in a wedding for two very good friends of ours. This is the 10th wedding I have been in so I feel almost like a professional (maybe I should make some business cards.). Anyhow, going to celebrations like this always make me remember back to all of the weddings I have ever been in and the ones I have attended.

My mom, all of my sisters, my mother in law, cousins, friends, and most importantly mine.

Hearing those vows being spoken reminds me of the vows that I made. Vows that I made before God and publicly for many witnesses to hear and believe. Vows that I made to the woman who I asked to spend my life with and who agreed to make those same vows.

For better or worse. For richer or poorer. In sickness and in health. Til death do us part.

We argue over “worse” but pray for “better.”

We worry about “poorer” but hope for “richer.”

We lose sleep over “sickness” and thank God for “health.”

Til death do us part…

That is the one that I have no question about. I knew that before I “popped the question.”

I love to see a couple begin their life together but I love even more to recall the beginning of my married life.

It was a good weekend.

The Home A1C Test - Results

So a few weeks ago I posted about a Home A1C test that I got my hands on. I needed to get my lab work done so I thought it would be a good time to test this Test out!

The home test I had is from Flexsite Diagnostics. I do not know a thing about this company except that their website made me think that Time Magazine called their test the "Gold Standard" until I realized that the quote was about just any A1C test. Sneaky!

Anyhow, many of you commented on the Home A1C and Minnesota Nice said that she had used this particular test compared to a lab test. Her results, "Clinic test said 6.8, mail in said 8.2!"

OUCH!

And the moment you have all been waiting for... My Results.

Lab Test - 7.7

Home Test - 8.8

I am not too happy about the 7.7 but I guess it could have been 8.8! I probably would have been happier about the lab results had the home results arrived first but they did not.

My thoughts? Well, for a test that costs 20 dollars, takes longer then a lab to get the results back to you, and is so inacurate I would probably not recommend. I thought "well, maybe if it was a little off" but to me, that is a big difference.

Now to work on lowering my A1C. Do I do that before I get over this depression? After I lose weight? During my newly surfaced craving for nicotine?

I should just go back to bed.

You Tube Tuesday #20

Seeing someone make a fool of themselves sometimes makes me feel better about myself. And Richard Dawson was one of the best Game Show hosts ever. Enjoy.

Updates: Feet, Fat, Friends and More

My foot is feeling better. I am still feeling pain but not nearly as bad. Could I just be getting used to it? I doubt it since the pain was pretty horrendous. But one thing I know for sure, it was not what Bernard thought it was.
I have a referral from a friend on another endo that I am going to check out and see if he is in my network of doctors. I will let you know what happens with that.

Still no word back from the home A1C test but as soon as I get it, I will post both the Labs results and this Home test.

I have not mentioned “O” or “M” in my blog for a while. I see "M" and his family each Sunday at church and we have some chit chat time occasionally. He seems to be doing well. His parents are so involved in his life and his Diabetes that I feel really good about his future.

His mom is so worried each time we talk and I tear up when I see her tears. It breaks my heart because I see what my mother must have felt and mothers of PWD’s everywhere feel when I see her. M is a good kid who for the time being seems to be in pretty good control of his D.

“O” on the other side of the coin has me very worried. I spoke with her mom a while back and she spoke about some very strange habits (IMO) like using Ice Cream as a snack before bed and wondering why O would wake up over 250. I told her that maybe she should check her BG in the middle of the night and try a different snack or something.

She did not seem very receptive but maybe I just read her wrong. All I can do is offer little nuggets of “wisdom” or suggest stuff when I see her. She also told me about using Ice Cream to treat a Hypo (maybe she works for Ben and Jerry) and I suggested Glucose tabs.

Hopefully she will remember some of the suggestions and check them out for herself and O. Then again, a part of me thinks I should just keep my mouth shut about it all. I am not a doctor so what the heck do I know.

My waistline continues to expand for what seems like no reason at all. I eat a lot of things that are very boring and do not have a lot of calories. I exercise and nada. It is driving me nuts. I am obviously not exercising enough nor am I cutting out enough calories. It goes without saying that it is completely depressing. I am just in a funk about it.

The desire to smoke has surfaced. I cannot stop thinking about smoking. I walk into crowds of people smoking hoping someone will offer me one and I can take it without even thinking about it. It has been over 6 months since I quit but I want to start smoking so bad I can hardly stand it.

Each time I look at myself in a mirror I am reminded of the 50 lbs that have been added to my fat ass since I quit. So what is worse, smoking or being severely obese? My BMI puts me in the range of severe obesity now and I figure I am on the fast track to a heart attack.

I know what some of you are thinking, “DON’T START AGAIN!” and I hear myself saying that too but I just figure I can lose some weight and then get on the patch again. Plus I’ve been in an ultra pissy mood lately because of it.

I am sorry guys; I am just not doing well.

The Endo Appointment

The best thing that happened with this appointment was the fact that I am now motivated to get a new endo.

Here are some actual quotes from my doctor.

"How are your blood sugars going? Are they in range?"
"Byetta is only for Type 2's."
"Are you on a pump?" (Master P was on my hip)
"They do not have FDA approval yet." (After I told him I really want CGM)
"Just put a cold compress on it and take ibuprofin." (When I told him about my foot. No exam BTW)

I am going to make an appointment with my regular doctor and see how long that will take before I can get in to see him.

I knew that my endo is not the doctor to see about my feet but I need an approval to see a podiatrist and I thought that since I am a diabetic and have a foot issue, that he would put in for the referral.

I am so effing done with this guy.

BTW, my foot still freaking hurts.