He is Different

This afternoon is a big one for my son. It is his very first Cross Country meet.

I think I have done a good job of sharing my son’s personality with you all but you must understand, he is different. Sure you always feel that way about your kid. They are the cutest, smartest, funniest, and most likely to run the country one day. I do recognize that there is some bias since he is mine but it is different.

He is different.

I remember back to his 7th birthday party. We had family and friends over at the house to celebrate. I was sitting down watching George walk around the party mingling. Like an adult! He would be outside with the kids playing and running around, and then come inside and sit down with his uncle. He would spend some time with him, and then go sit with his grandma to see how she was doing, over to his little sister, off to the living room to visit with cousins and friends, and then back outside. He would glide around and see how everyone was doing. Just like an adult.

He has always had this ability to fit in no matter what the situation. And when he puts his mind to something, it happens. Like the Tomb of the Unknown Soldier contest. Never an ounce of conceit or bragging about how great he is. He just knows he can do it and he does. Total confidence. And he is the first to encourage others and root for all. He loves to see other succeed. It is amazing.

And now he decided he wants to be on the cross country team but on the Varsity team as a freshman. I told him that is not typically the case but he says, “I know but I think I will make it. I run with the Varsity team all the time so I can keep up.”

I know it sounds awful but I am waiting for him to fail. That probably did not come out right. I mean, he can’t do it all right? It’s just, he has to fail right? He can’t accomplish all he wants to? Can he?

Do you see? I am so terrible with my own self esteem that I assume he is the same way. Maybe my vow to make sure my kids believed in themselves came true. I guess we did do something right. We have always told both of our kids that whatever they want in life is theirs if they work hard enough and never give up.

He is different. And I am so thankful for that.

I’ll let you all know how he does. You can find out sooner via Twitter. Follow a Ninja if you dare!

No Walk For You!

I realized last night that team “Beat the Bete” will not be walking this year.

I had signed up for the JDRF Walk for a Cure this year but it turns out we are busy that day. Between my meetings, George’s track meets, his band fieldshows, and Gillian’s soccer games we are pretty much booked every weekend until after Christmas! It is unbelievable.

For the past two years we have been doing the ADA walk but I really felt as though the JDRF is where I should focus my help. This morning I read a post by Jenny at Diabetes Update letting us all know how much of the funds raised actually get to the ADA. You should check it out.

Part of me feels like a flake since I won’t be doing a walk this year but I guess I will have to find another way to help.

After yesterday’s annoying lunch at work, I have been feeling like I needed a “pick me up” to make myself feel a little better.

This is not helping at all.

You Tube Tuesday #86

It has been a while since I have featured a cat on YTT. This one is so "Ninja" that I had to share it with you all.

Enjoy

A Case of the Mondays

I have a terrible case of the Mondays today. I am tired, grumpy, sad, and just in a bad mood.

This weekend has been a blur. We are constantly going and running around and my head hurts from it all. I spent all weekend trying to get to places on time, figure out meals, and remember what needs to be done for tomorrow. I am here, there, and still back there all at the same time.

I am sitting here at work thinking about all the stuff that I have to do tonight and each night this week and I have no clue how my brain is going to make it that is if my body can make it.

My blood sugars have been running high probably thanks to the stress. And I see no end in sight. That is where this awful fatigue sets in. When you think you are getting over the last hill into the final stretch and you see that there is another hill coming up and that may not be the last one? So you feel defeated and tired since the rest you were hoping for is further away then you were anticipating? Yeah, that is me right now.

This post was not meant to be a downer but it’s hard to hide how I am feeling. The other day I vlogged about my faith and I really should call on it now. I need to pray that I will find the strength to focus on only what needs to get done right now instead of focusing on all that has to be done over time.

One thing at a time. That should be the way I handle stuff. That way I could probably manage it better.

One. Thing. At. A. Time. (I am repeating it to myself slowly)

Wish me luck!

Faith Friday - Vlog Post

My faith is a big part of who I am. So is Diabetes. Check out this post to hear about how I call on my faith regarding my disease.

And be sure and check out Sara vlogging about Faith too! (If it's not up yet, have faith! It will be soon.)