I've Been Cured of Diabetes! - Day 7 of DBW
Sunday, May 16, 2010 at 7:44PM 
Day 7 - Dream a little dream - life after a cure. To wrap up Diabetes Blog Week, let’s pretend a cure has been found. We are all given a tiny little pill to swallow and *poof* our pancreases are back in working order. No side effects. No more insulin resistance. No more diabetes. Tell us what your life is now like. Or take us through your first day celebrating life without the Big D. Blog about how you imagine you would feel if you no longer were a Person With Diabetes.
Well, I took the little pill a week ago and so far, it has been strange.
For almost 20 years I have been sticking a needle in my body several times a day and squeezing blood out of my fingers and now I don't have too.
It's been great. I have been drinking juice like crazy. I don't think people without diabetes, or who never had it (since I don't anymore), realize how great juice is. Orange and Apple taste so good and I drink and drink it and I love it! I have been sticking to diet sodapop simply for the taste and I should watch the weight since the little pill has not come out for heart related stuff which I would like to avoid.
But here's what's weird. I still have all my supplies. I feel like I cannot get rid of all of the meters I have collected over the years or all the infusion sets and syringes I have. Like a diabetic hoarder or something.
For so many years diabetes tricked me and I still cannot trust that I am actually cured. I remember thinking I had the whole counting carb thing down and would be able to bring my A1C where I wanted it to be and yet it would always be horrible. I remember getting the right dosage and delivery for a certain meal only to have the exact same formula cause a major fail another night.
In a way, I feel like I am missing a window into knowing what my body is doing. I am on autopilot and have no clue where my BG is all day. Not that it matters but I want to know. I need to know. I am gonna go check.
98. And I had pizza for lunch and just finished a juice box (love juice!).
What is wrong with me? I prayed for a cure forever, I just never thought it would be like this. I miss it in a way. In a very twisted way. What did Diabetes do to my head?
And what about all of those people that could not afford the D-FREE Pill (as so many call it)? I wish I could have given them mine since who knows how much damage diabetes has already done and how long I have left? A kid should be cured not me. I could die tomorrow.
I think if I had really known what a cure was like I would just have lived my life to the fullest with diabetes and not gotten so upset when my control was not top notch. I mean, there is no way, no matter what I do, that I could have the BG's then like I do now. How could I have ever expected to have the A1C I will have now back then?
No, when I had diabetes I should have remembered that the disease was the problem not me. I should never have given it the power I did over my attitude, my outlook in life, or my self esteem.
Being cured has taught me that living with diabetes is awful but that it is my choice to let diabetes have power over who I think I am or not.
And you know what, I am who I am with or without a stupid disease.
Hindsight is 70-110.
Reader Comments (15)
I have the hardest time even imagining it. I can't write about it. All because of the cardiovascular disease that runs rampant through both my family and G's independent of diabetes. Sigh.
Oh yes... JUICE! I'm type 2 and I'm on insulin now and I'm only 36 and I'm hating the thought of a life without juice. Sigh.
I don't think I could ever drink juice again if I got cured...It would give me bad memories of my low days LOL. YOu need to come to my cure party instead where we only drink chocolate milk and eat skittles...
OMGsh.
I'm a freaking mess today.
Seriously....reading all these posts has dug deep down inside my soul and found emotions I put away a long time ago.
I read that and wonder if I'd keep worrying about Addy's blood sugars. Of course I would. I don't know how NOT to think about her blood sugars.
Thanks for the insightful post.
HIndsight is 70-110...that just says it all doesn't it?
Not checking the BG - would be weird, very strange.
You have such a great imagination!
Ahhhhh, sweet juice. Gallons and gallons and gallons of juice. Will most certainly have fresh squeezed at my D Par-tay!
kelly k
Seriously, George, this post was so well written, you had me believing you had "the pill". And I'm sorry for the things diabetes has stolen from you. You deserve all of the best and I'm so glad that you have the FOREsight to see the things you revealed here. Diabetes does not define you. "The disease is the problem..." s something I need to remember every day of my life. I can really let it get me down sometimes.
Thanks for this thought-provoking and extremely well-written post.
Hello! You should write a book or something. I had to slap myself a few times to make sure there wasn't a cure. Well put, well thought.
Beautifully written. It made me realize all that I take for granted as a person without diabetes.
Oh George - you deserve it as much as anyone - when you get the chance, don't give up your pill.
The hindsight statement is gonna be my new mantra when things go wrong.
I too love the hindsight line!
It is HARD to remember that we are not at fault, but diabetes is. So hard.
Love it, friend.
Thanks for sharing this! JUICE. I'll skip orange juice. And apple. That's all you got as a kid when you had a low blood sugar. It makes for a wierd taste in your mouth when you start coming around. And it would remind me too much of low blood sugars. Even now I keep a regular Coke in the fridge just for that reason. Can't do apple or orange. But the cool pomegrantes, grapes, mixed juices--I'll try those.
And yeah, keep my diet sodas. I'm so used to them...why change??
Scott