My bg has been out of control lately and I know why. It’s 100% diabetes fault.
Take this weekend for instance.
I went to a birthday party for a good friend and the food they had was a carbtastical array of pasta goodness. Not to mention bread and later on yummy dessert. SCORE
Far be it from me to not join in the fun right? Wine? Sure, it’s a party! I don’t want to be a party pooper and it’s rude to not join in.
Now I know my Dexcom is screaming at me but I am not going to be rude and stop dancing to deal with it. Especially with a Soul Train dance line going on. That would be a total jerk move on my part.
Here’s the thing, I know I should take all the blame on this and frankly I do. I really do feel like a complete loser when I look back at my print out of bg numbers. But at the time I just want to enjoy life. I want to have these great moments without thinking about diabetes. To not have it in the center of EVERY FREAKING THING I DO!!!
But I know this attitude is only helpful when I am really beating myself up. Sometimes it good to remember that this stuff is my responsibility but not all my fault. That is the difference. It’s not my fault that I have diabetes. It’s not my fault my body doesn’t do what it’s supposed to.
But to not take care of my responsibilities and to allow bad things to happen to my body because of negligence is my fault.
The line is thin but there is a difference between the two.
Don’t blame yourself for a high blood sugar or for having a disease. Love yourself and your wonky pancreas.
But love yourself enough to take care of those highs, to eat in ways that may not cause them to happen as often, to enjoy life regardless of your many responsibilities, and to blame diabetes for the times things don’t go as planned.
Diabetes is not your fault.