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Tuesday, June 4, 2013 at 4:24PM Hey there! Thanks for stopping by.
I have not been around a lot lately due to lots of stuff but since you are my friend I thought I would let you know whats been going on.
DIABETES: My blood sugars have been pretty decent lately. I got a terrible A1C back from the doctors recently but I did not let it bring me down. I am just plugging along trying to do better every day.
I still don't have it down but I am much happier with my numbers. It should lead to a lower A1C which will be nice. Other than that my diabetes is rolling along as usual.
SLEEP APNEA: This has been a royal pain in the ass. The company that sent my CPAP took forever to get things squared away with insurance. When they finally did they sent a mask that a little too tiny for this large ninja. There were supposed to send me a mask that would cover my mouth and nose but they send another one that only covers my nose. It is big enough but it weighs a ton. It feels like a brick on my upper lip which drives me nuts and gives me a fat(ter) lip in the morning.
SISTER: My sister has a few more rounds of chemo before she is done with it all! She is so strong and positive although the last few treatments have made her feel crumby. Her strength and grace is inspriring. As usual she won't let anything hold her back.
HEART: Had a stress test a few weeks ago and my cardiologist gave me a clean bill of health! I was really happy to hear the old ticker seems to be good to go. I can get back on my bike and start training for next years Tour de Cure.
WEIGHT: My wife and I decided to go back to Weight Watchers. We have been going for a few weeks now and so far I have lost 8 pounds. The dietician I worked with in Cardiac Rehabilitation said something about Weight Watchers that made a lot of sense to me. She compared going to WW to going to church. Sure you may read the Bible and understand stuff but we go each week to refocus, find support being with others who believe as we do, and build community with fellow worshipers. WW is the same in that we may know the Points values and what to eat but we need to check in. We need accountability! I believe as long as I continue to go to the meetings I will find my way to healthy again.
ADVOCATE: I attended Lilly Diabetes Blogger Summit. It was an amazing experience. They do such a good job of educating, listening, partnering, and sharing with those of us who attended. I was honored to be a panelist at the Diabetes Hope Conference. It was such a cool way to bring people together using Google Hangouts. Hopefully soon the discussion will be available online to view.
ME: I dunno where my head is anymore. I love to write here and share my life but I never seem to have time. At the same time, when I do not write and participate in the DOC I feel bad. Empty. It feels like my life is missing something and the fact is, it is. So what do I do? I have to work. I have responsibilities. Isn't this place a responsibilty? Then I look around the DOC and I think there are enough blogs to read why should I add to that when I feel so stale. My heart tells me to keep going which is the organ I usually listen to.
FUTURE: I have 3 episodes of Ninjabetic TV written. Like scripts written! I need to make the time to film and edit and I have none. They are really funny and I really want to share but I cannot find the time or motivation to make them happen. Maybe if I did that would be the thing to change my mood and feelings. Who knows anymore.
In the end I know I am just going to keep plugging along and maybe something will happen that will spark a fire to making this blog part of my daily life and not an after thought or burden.
What am I saying? This place is mine and it is like medicine for me. I have to find my groove again which I know I will. It's in there. I can feel it.
Reader Comments (6)
George - It sounds like you've got a lot of your ducks lined up in a row. Your heart is good, your blood sugars are getting better, and you're on track with Weight Watchers. Your sister is strong and inspirational. The cpap sounds like a pain in the arse, but hopefully you can get a mask that works better for you. Things are good.
Take the guilt off your plate and take a summer vacation from blogging. Give yourself permission to not think about it for a while. You may come back to it with a fresh outlook or you may find another way to stay bonded to the DOC. We all know that Ninjabetic has our backs and that he'll be back!
Glad to hear the heart is doing well!
Everything goes in cycles... to everything there is a season. You know where your passion lies... continue to pursue it. Can't wait to see the latest episodes of Ninjabetic TV!
health first.
I related to this post because I, myself, have somewhat disappeared from the blog world and feel guilty. That's not cool. I just feel like my non participation means I don't care.
it's hard so I totally get it. but in the end I figure.... everyone will still be there. It's not like i'm going to become an outcast.
I think about how I feel about everybody else and imagine they must feel the same. bloggers, we come and go but we are accepted in the DOC whenever and however we are.
:) take care of YOU, we aren't going anywhere.
Dude, I TOTALLY agree with everyone above.
You are slowly and steadily getting things lined up to support a full and healthy future. That is the important thing, and the right thing.
Blogging should never, ever be another source of stress in your life. If you can carve out a few minutes here and there to spit out a quick note, then do it. But if you can't, then don't. No stress allowed. I've seen your chaotic life in action, and totally understand how busy you are. It's total crazytown in ninja land.
George,
I know EXACTLY what you are saying, as I was there also. There were so many blogs more important than mine, there were better advocates, I didn't have enough time with the daughter and culinary school, etc. etc. etc. I want to thank Debra Gardner who pulled me up (without her even knowing it!) and got me back into the DOC world again. Your heart is huge my darlin' Ninja, and I'm glad for whenever you are able to post.
landileigh
George... I want a guest spot on Ninjabetic TV, please... We can do it by skype! Or something.... And I'm glad the heart is good and congrats re: Weight Watchers and weight loss... I know the journey is hard to get it off and keep it off, I also know you're not only a ninja, but a tiger and you will do it. xo