The Looong Low

I have actually started a weight loss plan. One where I eat only certain things and watch my calorie intake, all that good stuff. I will tell you a little more about that in another post because I just started so I do not have a lot to write about.

But yesterday I had a terrible low. Not a crazy low number day but a “pit of despair” kind of day. (Don’t even think of trying to escape, the chains are far too thick) A day where no matter what I did, my BG would not move up the way it normally does. Not the way I so desperately wanted it to.

It was 2pm and after a very tasty yet low calorie lunch I felt that “strangeness” of a low coming on. I busted out the old One Touch Ultra Smart which told me I was 67. The thing is I hardly bolused for lunch because I knew it was low carb. “Oh well” I thought and had a few Glucose tabs.

A half an hour later and I still felt like I was low. I was looking around the room and nothing was in focus but not in a “Velma from Scooby Doo” kind of way. Lows are so hard to explain but any of you that have the D can understand what I mean. Anyhow, I checked and I was at 80. Hmm. I never feel 80 usually? After Glucose tabs I am usually in the upper 100’s after a half? Jim never has a second cup of coffee at home?

I ran out of glucose tabs luckily I work with Willamina Wonka who ALWAYS has tons of candy on her desk. I cruise on by, grab some candy, avoid all eye contact and that “you are not supposed to have sugar” look I can feel being sent my way and sit back down.

15 minutes later and I still feel low.

83. wtf?

I am now really worried. I went out to the warehouse fridge and grabbed a Sprite. A REGULAR SPRITE. And friends, I drank the whole can. Wow! That stuff is sweet.

20 minutes later…97 and still feel not normal.

I get home and my BG is 112. I still feel strange. Not totally low but my head is not right.

I had 4 glucose tabs from my home stash and laid down on the couch. After a 45 minute nap I check my BG and I am at 116.

By now it is 5:45 and I am finally starting to feel this fog lift.

I lowered my basal rate last night and will need to do some fasting tests I am sure.

Have any of you had a low that lasted a long time? I would love to advice on how to approach the basal rate change. I could just use the tests in the Pumping Insulin book my Brother from another mother sent me I guess but I would love to hear what works for you.

You Tube Tuesday #30

Bring the kids, this is a video they will like!

You also may want to grab a piece of paper.

A Minute Past Midnight

That is the time I will have the final book in the Harry Potter series in my possession. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows.

My plan this weekend is to enter a “magic” cave and read. Read. READ.

Knowing all the A-holes that like to spoil things for fans, I will not be online reading ANYTHING this weekend.

I have to admit that although I have been waiting for this book (with everyone else) for what seems forever, I am sad that this day has come. I was not a book reader at all until I started reading the first HP. Now I read each night although not much since I fall asleep easily.

Are you planning to get the book tonight? Did you order it from Amazon? I am curious to know.

I'm Going to Lose My Job

A while back I posted about my boss’ wife who suffered from a stroke. She is still going through lots of rehabilitation and is improving over time. A few days a week, he brings her into the office and she will work on her writing and typing on a keyboard. Mostly, she just works with her left hand and tries to use it like she did before the stroke.

It is uplifting and heart wrenching at the same time. Her upbeat attitude about her recovery and her spirit of “I’ll be as good as new soon” makes me simultaneously smile and cry. She is a trooper as is my boss. He is constantly calling me from the road to help with projects, forward emails and give him phone numbers so he can take care of business while driving from appointments to therapy and such. I do not know if I could do it. I am sure I could if I dig deep enough because you never truly know how you will react during a crisis until it happens.

I guess my real concern is what my wife will do since the odds are in her favor as the care giver for the future. This is one thing I cannot fight thinking about. That one day, I will be the one in a wheelchair, or needing a Seeing Eye dog, or having to learn how to spell and talk once again. I know that is an awful thought but the odds are against me. It is hard to think about and I wish it was just nonsense but it isn’t. I hate to admit it but it is a real possibility.

This brings me to the title of this post.

Today is one of the days when my boss’ wife is here and she is sitting just 2 cubicles away from me practicing stacking paper cups with her left hand. I just heard the following conversation that occurred with one of my co-workers (CW) and my boss’ wife (BW).

CW: How are you feeling?

BW: Much better honey. I just keep working and working but I’m getting better every day!

CW: [My boss] told me that you were having some headaches.

BW: Yeah I was. They were terrible but they went away.

CW: Didn’t you have bad headaches before you had your stroke?

BW: Yeah I did. In fact, a doctor was telling me that it is a symptom and if they would have none they could have done something to prevent it.

CW: You know what, you didn’t speak enough. You can’t ignore when your body gives you signs.

BW: I know I know. (in a very apologetic way)

CW: If you don’t tell them everything that is wrong…

That was when I walked outside. I was so pissed off. I could not take another second.
How can ANYONE say something like that to someone AFTER they have had something tragic happen? How could say, “you should’ve done this or that” when they will never EVER be the same.

I am so mad and upset and just want to give BW a hug while telling CW where she can put her “advice.”

My problem is if I open my mouth, I lose it. I get so mad I am sure I will get canned.

Even a Ninja has limits.

You Tube Tuesday #29

This weeks video is very entertaining, at least I found it was. The editing is insane and it has a beat you can dance to. Check it out.