Home A1C Test TEST

Tomorrow I am going to the lab to give them lots of blood. Yes friends it is Lab eve here and I am cranky because I want diet pepsi and a Life Savers Sugar Free Popsicle but I am fasting (should be called "slowing" since time moves much slower without diet pepsi in your system!).

I came across a home A1C test kit and I thought I would put it to the test. I am just about to start the process of collecting my sample for the test. There is 8 steps to the whole thing which at first almost made me throw in the towel but I am curious to see how close this test is to the one the lab will do. (I swear sometimes that they named that monkey after me. Or maybe vice versa?)

I will let you all know both results however awful. I am not feeling so good about my control lately. My BG has been a little elevated since...um....well you could say since 2007 began so this cannot be good for me. Maybe a little failure will kick my ass into gear.

We shall see.

Damn, those popsicles are so yummy.

You Tube Tuesday #18

This is another Feed the Five video as promised. I am so happy that many of you liked the first one I posted last week. This song is called “With Me” and is an original song that we wrote! Please let me know what you think and I promise this will be the last FTF song for a while.

The Color Purple

Shug: More than anything God love admiration.
Celie: You saying God is vain?
Shug: No, not vain, just wanting to share a good thing. I think it pisses God off when you walk by the color purple in a field and don't notice it.
Celie: You saying it just wanna be loved like it say in the bible?
Shug: Yeah, Celie. Everything wanna be loved.

The dialog above is from my all time favorite movie "The Color Purple" and this is one of my favorite scene's. I turn to this movie whenever I am depressed or down. It always makes me feel better. And as you can guess, I have seen it many times.

People ask me, "How can such a depressing movie make you feel better?"

I get so caught up with the story that I forget about my own problems and sadness. When the story ends on such an uplifting note, I too am lifted out of my funk.

Why haven't I watched it yet? I dunno. I don't think I will need to this time.

Every morning when I leave for work I walk like a zombie from my back door to my car. Never noticing much along the way. On Friday I noticed something I had not noticed before.

I remember several months ago Georgie and I planted some seeds to see if we could grow some flowers. I do not have a green thumb at all so this springing up is pretty much a miracle to me.

This little glimpse of the color purple spoke volumes to me. I felt like it was God's way of saying, "I love you and you have plenty be thankful for."

He is right.

God, forgive me.
I see it now.

Ready to Climb a Mountain

Last night I was scrolling through some of my more recent posts and I realized that I have not even typed the word Diabetes in a long time.

What gives? Is it because things have been going so well?

No, my BG’s have been terrible lately. I have been both high and low but not a lot of places in between.

Is it because I have been too busy?

That is probably part of it. With all that has been going on, vacation and the gig, I have had a lot more exciting stuff to tell you all about. (in fact if you want another Feed the Five song, you may want to visit here next Tuesday).

When I get honest and real with myself I know the real reason is because I am sick of it. I am sick of hearing myself complain/whine/bitch about this disease. Sure I know I am allowed but I am tired of it.

It is one of those valleys I guess. We all have our ups and downs and I am experiencing a down right now, at least about the D. It just feels good to write about other stuff. Stuff that attempts to pull me out of this valley. Stuff that brings me great joy. Not trouble, stress, and worry. I hate Diabetes. I do not want to give it much exposure right now. Too often it takes the spot light and upstages me.

That is it!

Diabetes upstages me and I hate that.

Can you relate? I am sure you can and I would really like to hear your thoughts. I need to feel like I am not alone.

The valleys are lousy.

You Tube Tuesday #17

Last Sunday the band I am in had our very first performance. This is a clip of a song called “Past the Falls” that is not an original but it is the one that I am singing on so I thought I would share it with you. Unfortunately, video cameras do not pick up music well but I think it is good enough to get an idea. We are Christian group and our band name is Feed the Five.

I hope you like it.