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You Tube Tuesday #12

It is 12:08 AM. It is offically Tuesday. I didn't want those on the East Coast to not have something to watch before I was able to get this post up.

I have not posted much lately. Been in a foul mood and I didn't want to bum anyone out so I will post when the sun is shining a little brighter.

I am hooked on cute freaking dogs and cats it seems. It's hard because I look at several videos and these are always my fav's. Anyhow enjoy!


I Didn't Hide

I am quite sore this evening. But as Kate of Kate's Quest says, "it hurts so good!"

She is right.

I did not park around the corner the other night. I was ready to go when Matt showed up and man it was actually a lot of fun.

Matt is such a great friend and a good motivator. He was encouraging me when I was on my last few reps and could barely lift the weights up. It was like parents cheering for their kids at T-Ball.

That visual makes me LOL.

I knew I was a total wimp but he never made me feel like that. It was more of a, "quit dissing yourself dude, we will both get our shit together TOGETHER!"

We are exercising tonight and again Sunday. This is the schedule for now. 3 days a week. I think it is a good start for me and for him. I am going to attempt to do a little cardio in between but I do not trust myself not to sit on my computer and play Lord of the Rings Online (which is a new obsession for me!).

Anyhow, thanks to all of you that offer words of encouragement. I know quitting smoking was a very important part of being a B.A.D. but this weight loss is the next hurdle I must overcome.


Another try!

Tonight, one of my best friends, Matt, is coming over to workout in the Slimmons Gym with me. I am going to have to dust of the weights and pump up the speed bag but I am excited. I have tried several times to incorporate an exercise routine into my daily life but I have always failed. I start and continue for a few days and then I flake.

When he comes over and sees my car in the driveway there is no way I can hide. I will have to workout. This is probably what I need. Some accountability. Someone to show up and say, “Get your fat ass up and get out here Porko!” Matt will not be that mean I hope unless of course he has to be.

Crap now I am scared!

I guess I could park around the corner.


You Tube Tuesday #11

I have kicked the Kitty habit this week.

This is so cute! That laugh is infectious.


The Bonus Bummer

Yesterday I got a raise and a bonus.

And I am bummed.

WTF is wrong with me? My company loves me and gives me a very generous increase in salary and a very VERY sweet bonus for my past years efforts. My boss had very nice things to say to me and he was concerned about my health and even offered to change my hours if it would allow for exercise time in my life. He has seen me increase in girth but also quit smoking and he is very supportive. I am so lucky to work as such a great place.

But I am pissed off.

My bonus is not a bonus at all. It is only going to go to bill collectors that keep calling my house all hours of the day. We are in such a deep dark financial hole that this “bonus” money is only going to help us get out of that hole.

I guess that is a good thing and at times I see that it is BUT it is upsetting when your best efforts and extra work only gets you out of a hole. There is no reward which is what a bonus should be. I remember about this time last year I thought, “If I kick butt this year and get a sweet bones I am gonna hook up a CMGS and be a total BG Ninja!” but that is not going to happen.

I know I should count my blessings and especially after such a spiritual weekend but this goes to show you that I am not perfect. I am upset because I cannot splurge for once in my life when I should be able to. Well, I better get to kicking butt this year and see what next year has in store for me.

I need a Pop-tart or something to cheer me up.