Who Moved My Motivation?
Wednesday, January 20, 2010 at 8:31AM As of late I have been in an unmotivated state. I feel tired, bored, boring, and aimless.
I have these great ideas that start off strong in my head but then fizzle soon after. I have no motivation to do anything.
I have been packing on pounds like crazy again and I have no desire at all to do a damn thing about it. My wife asked me if I would want to go back to Weight Watchers again to which I replied with a simple, “no.”
My attempt to clean out the garage never happened. How can I think that by typing something out it means I am going to actually make it happen? Who does that?
My friend came over last night and told me that I should join the gym she goes to and I said, “I need to join but I will never go. I know it so what’s the point?”
Thinking ahead to this year and I get so bummed. I am planning to go on a couple of trips to meet DOC friends and I am already embarrassed about how I look but yet, I don’t want to do a thing about it.
What scares me the most is that I am not really all that upset. It is more like a matter of fact. I will never be that person who is fit and trim, and I will always be a lazy slug. That is the sad part is a part of me has given up.
Ugh, this is depressing I should delete it but I have no drive to write anything else right now. Maybe one of these Californian Tornados we are having will pick my ass up, drop me off in Oz and I can ask the wizard for Liposuction.
Reader Comments (7)
GNinja:
I hear you, sometimes we get so overwhelmed with life that we actually become complacent because the thought of what we MUST literally stops us in our tracks!
Totally ironic and weird, but absolutely true.
Maybe if you tell yourself that your going to Weight Watchers/ join a gym for your family instead of yourself, you might be more motivated to attend meetings.
You sir, put others before yourself most of the time, so if "doing it for them" makes you go, then by all means, do it for them!
Hang in there friend
LOVE YA
Kelly K
Heck, I would say ask the wizard for a new pancreas, but judging by that crappy heart he gave the tin man I'm guessing we're already wearing what he'd give you as a replacement :-)
Midwinter blahs happen. Things will get better. (You could be here, it's snowing again).
(((hugs)))
You already know my response:) hugs and prayers
Winter blahs always happen this time of year. That's part of it. But another part is thinking of the big picture and it being so overwhelming that it seems you'll fail, so why start? I do it all the time. Easy thing to do is baby steps ( think of the movie "What About Bob?"). Instead of thinking of cleaning the garage, set a smaller goal of doing a corner. Or moving that pile of boxes or something. Then do something fun for yourself... Like a round of wii Mario or something. Once you've used your lives, go back and do another small task. It may take longer but you get it done and feel better in the end. Same thing with weight loss. Don't dive in. Start by cutting something out of your diet, drinking just water, going once a week to the gym. Then add something else to that one habit the following week or two. Whatever time it takes to be comfortable with it. It's a lifestyle change. Took a long time to make the habits. Can't expect to change overnight. If you do, you're sabotaging yourself by being unrealistic. It works and is s lot less overwhelming.
Hope that helps! Sorry for being so long-winded!
I am a paying member of WW. I go because if I don't take care of myself, I will hurt my husband and our babies if we are lucky enough to be blessed with children. If I went just for me, it would be because I want to look good. Which seems selfish and wrong in my mind. So I do it for my family. And my future family.
While I work out, I often think about how it is helping my muscles to look better and make me stronger. Stronger so that my body uses insulin better so I don't have to take as much. Which may decrease the weight gain in the first place. I think about how it brings me more confidence which is the sexy part of me that attracted my husband in the first place. (my confidence caught him, my heart kept him)
Find your reasons. You might not have the energy, but finding a reason for anything is the first step. and we all stumble. We all have difficult times. It just so happens that they are usually in Jan/Feb.
You will get it. You will find your motivation. I keep a list of my reasons visible. If it stares me in the face, it is harder to miss.
George:
It's that time of year, for some reason. It seems so many of us are in that place. You know, we feel like crap and unmotivated to do anything, but those around us - like your wife, kids, and pup - bring smiles and motivation. That seems to do it for me (minus the kids, as we're childless at the moment). Keep the head up, brother. We in the D-Tribe love your personality and style. Always.
know what you mean about getting complacent with things :( I'm in the same boat, nothing is really motvating me at the moment. Be it diabetes wise or anything (in particular finding a new job after loosing my old one *le sigh*)
good luck, i'm sure it'll pass soon :)