Simmering
Thursday, January 21, 2010 at 8:21AM Yesterdays post was on my mind a lot last night. I kept replaying all the comments, texts, and emails I received and for the record you should know that those encouraging words do help.
When I write stuff down I start to feel a healing occur. It’s almost as if by reading it I can make sense of it and start new. I am forcing myself to not take that route.
This time, I am going to give it some time.
Typically I try to “snap out of it” when I get down. I think by just starting over all that old grumpy angry George will go away but realistically that makes no sense. I have to work on the root of the problem and tackle that first.
So I am going to let yesterdays post simmer in my head for a while and look to find what truly motivates me. Who knows I may need some third party help or a new hobby. I am not sure but something has to change. I just want to take my time figuring that out so it sticks.
I will do my best to provide some not so dull blog posts as yesterday but I think you all know that I share all that I am, good and bad, on this blog and that is something I never want to change.
This blog is a major source of energy for me and my continued quest to “get it right.” And if I am not honest here then I cannot be honest to myself. At least that is how I feel.
Thanks for the love and support. I hope I can send it right back. I just hope I’ll be a little thinner when I do!
Reader Comments (5)
Hugs and Prayers! I know you'll figure it out. There's a few things I like about you, the most important thing is "YOU keep it REAl" don't change it. Keep simmering away.
Let it simmer. I've been told "snapping out of it" isn't healthy in the long run, as I tend to do it too. I snap out of it and just push through to get the thing done and deal with the emotions and issues at a later time. But later never comes. At some point, it'll all boil over then - and that's not healthy either.
Don't feel bad about the blog you posted. Keeping it real is what you do and that's a good thing. No one expects you to be happy go-lucky 100% of the time. That's not real in a life without diabetes, let alone with it. So, at least with me (and I suspect for everyone else too, though I don't like to speak for others), don't feel you have to justify yesterday's blog or feel bad about it or anything. And if it needs a sequel, so be it! :)
But I know how you feel... I tend to hate to write negatively and always want to put on a positive spin. But one of the reasons I write my blog is for an outlet. I used to play oboe and piano, etc - I don't anymore. (I should, but I don't). So my blog is my outlet. I'm sure it is others as well. So let it out! :)
Dude. You are many things. Dull? Not one of them.
Big hugs.
George, your blog may be the best way in the long haul, but you are not the only one suffering here. I too have suffered this winter and I don't remember having this in the past. A couple of suggestions - lose or use the "where's the 40?" in the right column, Read another blog - http://www.healthcentral.com/diabetes/c/17/99915/strategies. This helped me in some ways.
At least by recognizing what is happening, this gives yourself and others the knowledge that if we slide too deep - there will be help. While laughter is often the best medicine, we want to be sure that we are laughing for the right cause, right reason, and we are sincere about our laughter. Just remember you can't forget the love standing by your side - if you haven't - confide in her and listen to her.
Bob
I can so relate. I had a nice Weight Watchers groove going, and I totally crashed and burned. I stepped on the scale this morning and learned that I am EXACTLY where I was before I started my WW journey. What a waste . . . I feel like shit.
But, just like you, writing about it makes me feel better. Or, at least I'm on the record with it.
Hang in there!