House to Home
Monday, March 28, 2011 at 8:43AM This week is the final stretch before we move this weekend. I am excited, nervous, and extremely reflective.
My state of mind lately lends itself to the feelings I’ve just described which I am already planning to ask my awesome doctor about. I know I need some help to figure out what is going on in my head but right now, this move is swirling over my head like a storm.
There are so many uncertainties when you have to move that concern me. Am I going to have everything packed in time? Is everything going to make it one piece? What is the floor going to look like when I remove that refrigerator? How are my dog and cat going to handle it? Do I have enough help?
Lots of things concern me as well as money. I have to rent a truck and dolly but there are going to be last minute expenses too that I am sure I forgetting about. That worries me too.
When I think back to why we had to move into the place we are in now it stirs up a lot of old feelings I have never really gotten over. For those who don’t know we lost our home over two years ago and moved into this place because it was in the school district and was available. That was really it. I never truly made it home. I never wanted to leave our old place. I felt like a failure and a fool. You see, we didn’t have a foreclosure; our home was stolen from us.
It’s funny how being a victim of real estate fraud actually makes you feel like the one who is to blame. I can go on and on about what happened but frankly I don’t want to. I am tired of thinking about it.
Now I am excited because this move we initiated. It’s funny that we did when we did because our landlord decided to sell the house we are in. Strange how things turn out isn’t it?
So this new place really feels like it is going to be our home. Not a house but a home. Sure it up to you to make it what you will but I just could never feel like the place we are in now was home. Those lingering feelings kept me up at night for a long time and when I look at the old carpet and outdated wallpaper it reminded me that this is no place I was supposed to be.
Soon I will be home.
Reader Comments (9)
I can't imagine how stressed you are this week, with the move and all of the doctor stuff going on in your head. But just relax. In only a few short days a bunch of the DOC will be in town to help take your mind off of things, and then to help you move!
I know it will be a lot of work, but I'm excited for an opportunity to help you. Heck, we could be searching for needles in a haystack for all I care, as long as we can chit-chat and hang out while we're doing it!
(That's how I'm feeling where I am now - it's not home, it's somewhere in between.)
So glad you are able to move ahead and forward. :)
Good luck with your move. Hoping things go smoothly & that time flies until you are in your new home.
Do rented moving vans double as teleport transmission receptors? If so, you can totally expect me to be there and help out! Glad it feels like a good place your family can kick back in. My love to you all - hope it goes well.
I'm off to build a teleporter now!
Moving sucks. I'm going through the stress of moving and worrying if there will be enough money and help.. I'm worried I don't even have a place to go yet.. I have faith that it will work out and I'll get what I need and the more I express my concerns the more people are coming out of the woodwork to help me out. I've now got a fridge, washer and dryer and a microwave... all for the low price of $50 bucks.
I am a firm believer in the mantra good in good out. You put a LOT of good out brother. <3<3<3 call me if you ever need to vent about moving... or just want to laugh. You know we've both got the same twisted sense of humor!
LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE YOU!
Ps. Give Scott a big hug from me!!!! :)
wow. I just said "fifty dollar bucks"
I need a nap :)
Welcome (almost) Home, Ninja. I'll pray for your move and the transition in general!
George,
You brought tears to my eyes, as you know my little sister and her family have been going through all this the last two years as well. They have moved 4 times in the last 2 years (once was a short month at my home) and I know they have gone through all the same emotions.
Your post as always gave me hope.
I wish I was there to help you make this big move, but I'm packing with you in spirit. See? I just wrapped a favorite mug in newspaper! xo